Death Of Herself

[iblieve]

She’s the life of the party
The death of herself
Acts kind of naughty
Whiskey on her breath
Another shot for sorrow, another fix for pain
Her only excuse is being insane

She dances with demon of her own design
While listening to the ones dancing in her mind
She loves you tomorrow, she hates you today
She waves goodbye as her reality fades
Listening to the chorus inside her head
Telling her to live, she’s already dead.

She’s the life of the party
The death of herself
Acts kind of naughty
Stale sex on her breath
Another shot for sorrow, another fix for pain
Her only excuse is being insane

She is the hopeless taker
A broken hearted tragic faker
Wallowing in her cesspool life
Darkness will have to suffice
Paranoia keeps her entangled
With anguish until she is strangled
Into submission by the voices
Inside her head, too many choices

Rope, gun, knife or pills
Which one to free her will
Speeding car through the rails
Plunging down straight to hell
Seems to her a peaceful place to be
The only place she can find sanctuary

She’s the life of the party
The death of herself
Acts kind of naughty
Death on her breath
Another shot for sorrow, another fix for pain
Her only excuse is being insane,
And I couldn’t stop her hell bound train

iblieve

[Dandylion]

Wow...this is excellent. Such power and imagination in this one. I love this one alot too. Really show cases your talent. Excellent my dear~Dandylion

[iblieve]

Thank you my dear, but hell you're my biggest fan, and from the looks of it, the only fan I have around here, lol. I am your biggest fan too! love "C"

[TRexroth]

what a killer rythmic structure

[iblieve]

Thanks Trex, I appreciate the compliment.

[Okami]

I love it...

often we try to fix the lives of our friends, especially if we've fallen for their outer ploy. The rhyming pulls you through it like a train.

[*Funshine*]

Wow! I really liked this poem...great write!

[iblieve]

Hi Funshine, glad you like my poem, was wondering where you was at. Thanks Elizabeth for your comment too, I appreciate it. I am so glad we found this site, it is so much fun and so many good poets here. Thanks again my friends for the comements. iblieve

[strawberygashes]

Originally posted by iblieve
Rope, gun, knife or pills
Which one to free her will
Speeding car through the rails
Plunging down straight to hell
Seems to her a peaceful place to be
The only place she can find sanctuary

I love this part. It reminds me of some bad times I went through with a friend who was suicidal. Yet, you put the words in an amazing tone to me. I liked it.

~morgan

[iblieve]

Thanks Morgan for all of your comments. I felt a certain something whenI read your post, a kindred spirit maybe? As a matter of a face you were one of the first poets I read here because of your name, I love it. So know I will keeping reading you, and I hope that my work continues to touch you, my new friend. iblieve

[TorturedJester]

Another dark gem my friend, and you are right, you almost write dark poetry as well as I do;)..lol.. Really, I read your stuff so often I sometimes think its my own. We truly do reflect each others painful honesty and dark dark place in which we come from. I'm glad you endured, my friend, to be here today as a fellow Black market dreamer. And keep these black market gems coming brother. I'll be bringing the darker side of my poetry around here soon. Hope you enjoy it as much as I've enjoyed tripping on your killer shi*. Peace. Love. Zack da torturedjester

[iblieve]

Yes TJ, the darkness has descended at AC, bring it on. Us dreamers from the darkside have a lot to say, LMAO, look at my comments and I've been here less than two weeks, but that speaks to the talent here. Some excellent poetry of all varieties makes this the best site I've found and I've been around. Your fellow BMD. iblieve

[iblieve]

revisiting this old one to publish at another site and thought what the hell, I have many new friends at AC that has never read it iblieve

[VelvetCrow]

I'm glad you dediced to post it, very good poem iblieve. Another shot for sorrow, another fix for pain
Her only excuse is being insane
I loved this line, hell I like all.

[Aislin_MMH]

God damn...have you been watching me when I wasn't looking?

Haha, anyway, excellent poem. Reminds me strikingly of myself sometimes....bipolar, paranoid, all that fun stuff :)

~Angie

[iblieve]

Thanks VC, this was one of the first three poems I posted at Ac. I decided to pull it back up becasue it is still one of my favorites.

There you are angie, good to hear from you. No I haven't been watching, this is about someone I knew for a short time, never was a chance to save her from herself. Give me a shout sometimes on IM, miss talking to you. iblieve

[Dandylion]

I still love this one baby...one of your greatest poems...and a true story no less!~Dandy

[iblieve]

Thank you baby, yes a reminder of the past darkness thankfully left behind. YOur "C"

[blurred]

this reminds me a bit of a song...I love the repitition; it works very well. I also love the way you ended it.
this is very well done.

[iblieve]

It's funny blurr, when I read this it is in the tune of a country song, sad and wailing, but music is poetry to me. iblieve

[the_grey_girl]

Excellent added to all of the other comments above... this one has great flow and imagery and truth to it! Loved the wording, too.... seedy, just like Iberville/Chartres at 3am on a hot summer night :)

[iblieve]

lmao thank you GG. "C"

[iblieve]

Yes dean too many things are too true. Thank you for reading and understanding this one, it is one of my favoritesabout the darkness I use to know. iblieve

[sachmet]

Awesome! You definately have a fan in me. Wouldnt have got 'To catch a dragon' shipped all the way from the USA to Australia if I wasnt a fan ;)

[iblieve]

Thank you Sachmet, you will never know how much that means to me. I am forever grateful that you cared enough to ship it all that way just to read it. I sincerely yhope the journey through my darkness was worth it. Sincerely "C" iblieve

[sachmet]

It was worth it. I couldnt put it down.

[sachmet]

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This is where I got My copy from...but seems they have sold out. :( Maybe iblieve knows of alternate source.

[Pirra]

The articulation motherboard has failed...All I can manage to say right now is *WOW*.

[Dandylion]

Hey Dean...you can also get his book at this place for $17.99...I think. Go check it out:)~Dandy

http://www.buybooksontheweb.com/description.asp?ISBN=0-7414-1117-2

[iblieve]

Thanks Sachmet, if I ever get rich I will hire you as my public relations manager, I appreciate the wonderful reviews, and pirra sometimes wow is enough.

My brother dean, thank you for the interest in my book, I am sure you will love its darkness. If you live in America the link Dandy put up is better for me, and you and soon I am sure the other place will re-order it too. I think they have to pay for the ones they have and then the company fronts them some more. My online publisher is the only one that fronts its books to the wholesaler which helps sales. Something to think about if you ever decide to use print on demand. Thank you all for the support. iblieve

[sachmet]

Sounds good to me :)

[iblieve]

Dean be sure to let me know what you think about it, and sachmet thanks again myd ear friend. iblieve One more thing I am so glad to see this poem get so many reads and comemtns, thank you so much my friends. iblieve

[Eireann]

She dances with demon of her own design
While listening to the ones dancing in her mind
She loves you tomorrow, she hates you today
She waves goodbye as her reality fades
Listening to the chorus inside her head
Telling her to live, she’s already dead.

wow...i know i say this _A_LOT_ but this is definately my new (old?) favorite by you! Maybe because I can relate to it so well...whats the point in not doing everything destructive that you possibly can so long as it's fun, if you're already dead? Fantasmical write...fantasmical...

[iblieve]

Thanks Eireann, but the tragedy is she could have done so much more. ANother poem and my favorite about this person Is in Dark General called, "She Doesn"t Like The Sun." Thank God I meet dandy and moved on to the light. iblieve

[Territorial Hawk]

excellent.

[iblieve]

Thanks Hawk and sirreen2 yes I survived the un lady, stronger than ever after I put the pieces back together, lol Thanks for all the comemnts on this special poem to me. iblieve

[Jeaniepune37]

i read this a long time ago, loved it but didnt quite know what to say....i love the way you wrote it

[iblieve]

Thank you my friend, I do apprecuiate your eading it twice and comemtning, iblieve

[Nickodemus]

This could make a cool metal track, this wasn't an intention?

[iblieve]

Thanks my friend but I wrote this a while back just to put her to rest, but yes would make a great metal track but funny thing is when it plays in my mind it has a country rock twang to it, lmao. Thanks for the read . "C"

[noahchenhalls]

The classic story of how people always ruin their own lives. Excellent

[iblieve]

Thank you my brother, yes that is the best place to get it, which reminds me I need to call them and see why they are keeping all my money, lol. We love ya and get ready this book is about life the darcness I have known. Hint The Character OUtlawe is me 100 percent.