Perfection

[Dandylion]

Im fainting once again,
all those pictures of beauty held over my head
like beacons of un-natural light.
The perfection that eludes me.
Hollywood dolls dressed up
for the eye, the body, to absorb.
I am weak in appearance, no glow
that eminates from my image.
I am unhappy in my own skin,
this glob of flesh that hounds me
while beauty parades around me night and day.
I would rather be dead
than hold this reflection one more time.
I am not blond enough, I am not thin enough,
I am not round in all the right places.
I am not dark enough, light enough,
I am not enough of anything to behold.
I am nothing but a vague form
hanging lifelessy around these old bones.
Perfection is out of my grasp,
like a dream that will never come true.
I would rather be dead
than see my reflection one more time.

[Moonshine]

I don't know why, but this made me angry in frustration, when I have the same feelings in regards to my own reflection. Yet, reading these words from you, I'm angry. I know "C" will agree with me when I say this to you: you are beautiful, your heart is what shines through. But when I look in the mirror, I see someone ugly and unattractive. Hear myself think "who'd ever want to be with me?" How much of a hypocrit am I? This way of thinking is so much do with inner confidence, something that I lack a lot of the time. One more thing to point out: what does the celebrity realm know? They represent less than 1% of the world's population - if that! How can we base what society deems accpetable on that meager percentage. I'm getting steamed... I'll shut up now :mad:

Yours,
Moonshine x

[Dandylion]

Thanks moon, I know what ya mean. I dont have all the resources of Hollywood, let alone the money, to look good. I get so tired of it, this feeling of devastation. Some days I do good, some days I dont. I wasnt doing good when I wrote this:(
Thank you for the encouragement. You are a good friend~love~Dandy

[Moonshine]

But I am sure that your "C" doesn't see just your figure, he sees all of you. That's what love is! :D

Yours,
Moonshine x

[iblieve]

Hey moonshine, I see her figure and figure I like it, alot. Ah Dandy yoou know you're beautiful, but it does make a great peom. Much love my dear. Your "C"

[Moonshine]

You know what I mean! :p You see Dandy's figure - which you adore, but you also see Dandy's heart, soul, mind...

Yours,
Moonshine

[erica]

Its sad that society has defined physical "beauty" in such a way that it can only be attained artificially... tanning beds, plastic surgery, hair dye, etc. If society now forces us to dislike our natural appearances, I think somebody else should pay for our antidepressants! :(

[Dandylion]

amen sister..amen!
Thanks for the comment. I love your work very much and am honored that you read mine:)
Have a beautiful day my favorite newbie:)~Dandy

[the_grey_girl]

There's alot to be said for the burqa or hijab, if you ask me... which nobody did. I loved the poem, and it brings to mind some of those things like, not only in this society do you have to be beautiful for HIM, but look good for his stupid friends to be impressed as well at his selective skills. Too "everything," not enough of "anything"... a bad episode of Seinfeld without the comedy to it.

[Dandylion]

Thanks grey girl, yah...I would opt for a burqa....It is hard, especially when he wants to show you off...I think...oh great...here we go. Now, thankfully, in my current relationship he doesnt do that. He tells me Im beautiful all the time, but ya know what...I know better. TV tells me Im not. Mag ads, music industry....one day I would like someone to say of some nice round gal...wow...she is the bomb! I dont see people chomping at the bit to see a Queen Latifa layout in playboy....oh but I digress...Ill end here with a hearty thank you. Its so nice for people to understand what I mean:)~Dandy

[Tavis263]

Just remember you are a Beautiful Soul.


Yours Truely,
Motavis.

ps. Remember that's the part people really see.

[Dandylion]

Thank you so much Tavis. I was told for years that I needed to "look" like someone else...any pretty babe on tv. My love (iblieve) loves me inside and out, I just find it hard to accept. I guess writing this is my way of working it out. Thank you for your kind words. It is especially wonderful to hear on days like this:)~Dandy

[Territorial Hawk]

I would rather be dead
than see my reflection one more time.

I know this feeling well.

[Presence]

I love this piece. I don't know what more to say. Yours, Presence

[Soul Tribunal]

Reflections can lie.....look to yourslef, without a mirror...and you will truly see who you are,

Dennis

[Dandylion]

Thank you guys:) I appreciate your support and comments:) Some days...I do good...others, I dont. Thank you~Dandy

[iblieve]

Wow baby, the comments and views you got on this one is fantastic, seems many can relate, but I still want you to know----you are perfect Your "C"