royal jester
02-25-2004, 12:12 AM
i'm sorry you have no bacground info i really am. I changed the names this is an email to me and my reply:
Adam you still didn't answer this, or even make a comment on it why? answer this, i want a true answer!!
Ryan Jones wrote:
dear Adam
i have written this letter 3 times, because of my stupid computer so bare with me. I am jelous of you, your friends, faith, and family. i have no life, don't ask what i do in my free time. all i ask is that if you see me (rarely) just say hello or something of that sort. when i told that i felt invisble it's true, so many pepole forget me, ignore me, or just don't see me. just remeber the name Ryan, probely not. such is life.
My Reply:
answer to what? i do not see a question all i see is a false perception of just another human being but if you are asking me how i do it or if it's really how it is then the answer is no. you want the truth and the answers?
1)my friends- my church fell apart for me. the only good christain companion i have left is nick. keven left, joey left, the nicely's are gone, my youth group has degraded. brett has changed. my second best friend i have right now is jewish and the third is i don't know what! my friends, sure i have alot, but no good ones that i can talk to deeply with. it hurts my soul years for something more.
2)faith- i really don't want to talk about this but since you asked me three times because your computer messed up i will. I don't know about it all anymore. i know all the answers i have known them since i was little they have been drilled into my brain. But what do i BELIVE? where is my faith? i'm not sure anymore! i have sat back and wondered about alot since and my brain just simply doesn't know my faith has gown down the tube and i don't know what is right or wrong or truth of lie anymore. you think i miss all my youth groop friends? the one i miss most is jesus. try that one on for size. it hurts. ow.
3)my family- christains. i cant tell them about 1 and 2. you ever have something heavy on your heart and can't tell the people you love the most and live with because it would break their hearts? it kills. i can hardly talk to them anymore. when we sit down and pray i will just utter the words that i have said for as long as i remember and they think everything is ok. yeah. it's crap. Ow. Pain.
4)don't ask me what I do in my free time. i sit in my chair and stare at the ceeling and think about the wrongs of humanity and the misteries ofd the universe. kinda depressing. i don't know what to do about anything anymore and i cant know what to do. so i sit and wait for the answers to magicaly fall from the sky but instead i just stare at the wall and do nothing.
5)the invisible man and the hollow man have lots in common.
remembered, seen, acgnolaged. but still just as unknown
God bless you Ryan Jones. Lives are never fair or easy all the time
~Such are lives
Adam you still didn't answer this, or even make a comment on it why? answer this, i want a true answer!!
Ryan Jones wrote:
dear Adam
i have written this letter 3 times, because of my stupid computer so bare with me. I am jelous of you, your friends, faith, and family. i have no life, don't ask what i do in my free time. all i ask is that if you see me (rarely) just say hello or something of that sort. when i told that i felt invisble it's true, so many pepole forget me, ignore me, or just don't see me. just remeber the name Ryan, probely not. such is life.
My Reply:
answer to what? i do not see a question all i see is a false perception of just another human being but if you are asking me how i do it or if it's really how it is then the answer is no. you want the truth and the answers?
1)my friends- my church fell apart for me. the only good christain companion i have left is nick. keven left, joey left, the nicely's are gone, my youth group has degraded. brett has changed. my second best friend i have right now is jewish and the third is i don't know what! my friends, sure i have alot, but no good ones that i can talk to deeply with. it hurts my soul years for something more.
2)faith- i really don't want to talk about this but since you asked me three times because your computer messed up i will. I don't know about it all anymore. i know all the answers i have known them since i was little they have been drilled into my brain. But what do i BELIVE? where is my faith? i'm not sure anymore! i have sat back and wondered about alot since and my brain just simply doesn't know my faith has gown down the tube and i don't know what is right or wrong or truth of lie anymore. you think i miss all my youth groop friends? the one i miss most is jesus. try that one on for size. it hurts. ow.
3)my family- christains. i cant tell them about 1 and 2. you ever have something heavy on your heart and can't tell the people you love the most and live with because it would break their hearts? it kills. i can hardly talk to them anymore. when we sit down and pray i will just utter the words that i have said for as long as i remember and they think everything is ok. yeah. it's crap. Ow. Pain.
4)don't ask me what I do in my free time. i sit in my chair and stare at the ceeling and think about the wrongs of humanity and the misteries ofd the universe. kinda depressing. i don't know what to do about anything anymore and i cant know what to do. so i sit and wait for the answers to magicaly fall from the sky but instead i just stare at the wall and do nothing.
5)the invisible man and the hollow man have lots in common.
remembered, seen, acgnolaged. but still just as unknown
God bless you Ryan Jones. Lives are never fair or easy all the time
~Such are lives