taking it

[Kamikosan]

it's me it's all of me staring in the mirror at this newly redheaded brown eyed girl with the sad eyes...funny how when i saw those pictures she sent me how sad my eyes looked compared with pictures a few years ago...i have gotten old, what has happened? i'm barely twenty and i've seen more and done more than i thought i would and yet i have done nothing at all...what ever happened to standing bare legged in the ocean, or searching for vampires in new orleans, or visiting new york and the statue of liberty, or playing music on a street corner in seattle, or crying at the beauty of sante fe, or returning to the ocean side in san diego....all of it has been lost in a drunken stupor. with every drink that enters my mouth these dreams sail further away and with every man that i **** the real one disappears and all i am left with is an empty glass and a broken heart.

he said i was lost and i had dreams but i just didn't know what to do or how to achieve them and he is right, he is right, there is only me and this stupid wall i have created..."i can't do it" and why can't i do it, there is no reason for me not to do it, i CAN...the only thing stopping me is me and that is my fault. i am afraid to get up from my corner and throw it all to the wind. and yet there it all is, waiting for me to come and take it.

i will take it. i want to take it. it is mine for the taking.

[GG]

thank you for sharing this. i want to say some advice, but i can't. you said it all, the problem, the solution, and the stupor.

hoping to take it and not giving up that hope,
GG

[Kamikosan]

gg: don't ever give up hope :)

twitch: you're right i wanna :D

thanks for reading!

bethany *jump*

[Barbriat]

Whether you think you can,
or you think you can't...
you're probably right. :cool:

[Kamikosan]

barb & pumpkin:

thanks for reading...

bethany *jump*

[tony schofield]

Hey - should I change my avatar? I haven't been to your places Kamikosan, but I've packed plenty of beauty into my life - and I still remember so may glorious sunsets reflected in my glass of wine. Perhaps it's just because it's the one?

My beauties fade when I start wasting my time, like spending too much of it on trivialities. Things look better when I can relax after hard work. Sorry if that sounds a bit like hitting my head with a hammer because it's so nice when I stop ;)

Thanks for an intriguing read

tony

[Kamikosan]

tony:

i'm learning the enjoyment of life with one glass of wine, as opposed to the entire bottle. it took awhile, but i'm finally learning!! :)

thanks for reading. here's to the beauty of life with one glass! ;)

bethany *jump*

[naturalist]

isn't it strange bethany - what a difference it really does make. I'm so glad for you. thanks for the write - I sure did appreciate it.

congratulations once again!

katie

[Kamikosan]

*HUGZ* thank you katie! :)

bethany *jump*